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The title is exactly how I feel today…ALL JUMBLED UP!..i pace… I watch Tv….. I pace some more…I make cookies..I make chicken..I watch TV….. I use the computer. The kids have been good I am jittery and I PRAY OFTEN…almost every minute….I try not to think…not to plan…Not to worry ..not to fear….not to count my chickens before they hatch! What’s in store for us? Only the Lord Knows…He is the only one. It’s His planning and His timing….He knows…Sometimes Prayer seems fruitless..Like I am trying to sway my God’s mind who already has his made Up…I am nervous….. I am scared…. i am happy…I am overwhelmed… I am everything in between and yet….. THERE IS PEACE!
Simple Devotions
For Today…
Dear Lord,
I bring you my shortcomings… lack of patience fear and dread that we are going to be let down by both you and a Church
I bring you my worship and praise… I wish I could I am so scatter brained..You know what will happen..You are the God of all and you know EVERYTHING before it ever happens
I bring you my prayer… I want you to know that with all of my heart I want this..More than anything else I want to serve you in this capacity..It is such torture to get little tastes of it here and there and then it never comes to be…YET I want your will too! I don’t want to be as the Israelite were when they were impatient in wanting a King…They were so close to getting one that God was going to give yet they chose Saul….those who aren’t in ministry they don’t understand what it is to have such a burden and such a calling and yet They shrug their shoulders and say it wasn’t God’s will It was meant to be…Ministry has a lot of rejection that goes with it in so many ways I know BUT yet….you lay yourself out there time after time after time…….You have to pour out your whole self you give literally everything you have until you are so completely drained…Nothing left to give..and yet you find that last little thread….
You spoke to me… sadly I wish you would speak to me on this subject and yet your voice seems non-exisatnt….Cloudiness and fog…No answers…tonight I guess we will finally know what your will will be!
So Now what?
So tonight as I stood preparing our supper at the stove (that’s where I get most of my ideas for blog posts) I thought about Former president George W. Bush. Today was the end of his second term in office and as I watched him walk down that long corridor he had such a look of sadness….. What does a man do after he has been president of the United States of America? As every little boy and girl dreams of what they will be when they are gown up there are shadows of having the most important job in the land! So say that dream comes true…You become president of the United Sates…Not once are you elected but twice . You had the full experience…So my question is the same as in the title of this blog post…So now what? Well I can tell you for starters what he will be doing…I know he will because despite his shortcomings he has held true to his faith and I believe he will do this because he loves his country!
Simple Womans Daybook
FOR TODAY (January 19, 2009)… Outside My Window…Daylight is dawning and today is supposed to be in the twenties.. Yay a heat wave! I am thinking…Whew. I am totally exhausted emotionally and mentally! I am thankful for…a safe trip and a wonderful time candidating a church From the learning rooms…book work..The color gray Ovals and pre writing exercises From the kitchen.. HMM! I haven’t thought that far ahead yet..BBQ chicken I think! I am wearing.Sweats tights socks..It’s in the teens are you kidding me! I am creating..Diaper sacks for on our vacation in less than a week I am going…no where til Wednesday I am reading..Prayer by Philip Yancey, Defuse by Karol Ladd and Genesis, psalms Provebs and Matthew! I am hoping..for God’s will in this new church and for it to be a YES! All wrapped into one! Safe travels for our vacation I am hearing..the hum of the computer Around the house Unpacking and repacking One of my favorite things.SLEEP! A Few Plans For The Rest Of The Week…Unpacking today repacking for our vacation and so much more…there really is too much to blog about! A picture I am sharing with you…. 
