Hope for the Weary Mom-Week 6


WEEK 6 when the words are slow to come.

I think we’ve all been there. For me it is most certainly the noise level and as a mom of three boys, there most certainly is A LOT of noise…..and i usually end it with a very loud ENOUGH! That could be heard down the road!

That is one thing that drives me nuts but the other….is whining…..i DETEST IT.

And God tests me with it every day! I used to tease, before i was a mom i prayed for patience, then God gave Us Tornado and i stopped praying for patience! Tornado has matured greatly since i made that statement nearly 6 1/2 years ago!

One of the things tornado loved to do was pull every book on ALL the bookshelves off…now note we have a TON of books and tornado and his sister are 14 months apart so i was VERY pregnant when he went through this stage! And then two of them when i had our next 16 months after ladybug( it was by no means my plan). My patience has been tried many times everyday for the last 7 1/2 years.and yes i have said somethings i regret! But yet this weary mom does have hope!

I now have four kids ages 7,6,5 and almost 3…..thats four kids in 5 years! Of course i am weary. On top of all of this i have a specials needs child, which is a relatively new discovery! And that tries me more than anything I have ever done in my life!

The only thing that holds this all together is my relationship with Christ. It isn’t where i want it to be, i’m not sure it ever will( i have pretty high expectations and goals). But just as all the authors have already said this week, God’s word is what we need to accomplish our calling. I need to rely on Him more and call out to Him for His help in times of stress!

The words of one of my professors from college echoes in my head…
“You can’t give them what you don’t have.”

How true…..

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Hope for the Weary Mom- Week 5


First off I’d like to say…..YAHOOOOOOOO! I played catch up all week and now as of this post I am ALL caught up!

So as i read this chapter, I was reminded of another book that made me crack up….and made me cry! It’s called “Mommy’s Locked In The Bathroom.” True confession…..I’ve done it…i have locked myself in the bathroom. To cry, to laugh (at something that was hilarious and yet so very naughty at the same time), to scream, to kiss my hubby! I never said I was by myself! Anyway we all need those times to escape…..those times as of late seem to be getting closer and closer together!

We have four kids, we believe kids are a blessing and are so thankful to have them! They are (at this moment) 7.6.5 and almost 3. Get the picture. Three of them might as well have been triplets when # 3 came along! Three in diapers! Tornado was a little over 2 when weasel joined the family. Weasel was so easy though, he hardly made a sound. I had to set a timer when it was his feeding time…he rarely cried for food let alone for anything else. Our Dr said he will let you know! Nope! I had to check on him often, he wouldn’t cry when he woke up either he would just lay there! He didn’t talk well until he was nearly three. Little Bean joined us two and a half years later! I think that’s when it truly got overwhelming. Not because there were four but because of health issues with the two younger ones, and church, and school …..it seemed to never slow down. I remember being in the hospital with little bean when he was born and saying….ahhhhh peace and quiet. It was the first time I enjoyed the hospital stay!

Looking back i see all the signs of autism…hind sight is 20/20 you know. At that point he was just a “very easy baby” but as the years have gone by i have found the need for escape more necessary….that is until I read this chapter. This chapter was artfully written. How many times do I cry out to God for help, but never “get the chance” to read the instruction manual?

My goal for the remainder of this study (in hopes of making it a habit) is to every time I cry out to God for help is to read a Psalm.
Will you join me?

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Hope For the Weary Mom- Playing catch up Week 4


WEEK 4-
From the fall of 2010 until December of 2011 was what I had come to refer to as the year of death. NO JOKE! Within a month both an aunt and an uncle on my dad’s side of the family passed away. About two months later two friend within a week of each other lost their battles with cancer. Then a friend from my husbands childhood committed suicide. Then another aunt. (Same side as before). A friend lost the baby she was carrying to a devastating disease. Another friend lost her battle with cancer and then…..a week later my grandmother was diagnosed with advanced cancer, and was gone a little more than a month later….the week before Christmas!

That was one tough year and i would definitely say I was in the same place as the author…..wondering what was going to happen next. There were other major trials that year too. It was all in all a very emotional year as we prayed for family and friends health and time and again it just was not what God had planned! It’s hard to stomach God’s plans sometimes, especially when they don’t match my perfect plans ( note heavy sarcasm). My plans are selfish! They are centered on what’s better for me!

Just as post two talked about this week as well we sometimes have to mourn the loss of our ideals and dreams when something happens to a child. As we embark on this journey of Aspergers with our 5 year old son, I had to say goodbye to some of the normal things our other kids have experienced. I am not by any means saying my son can’t grow to live a normal life as an adult ,but it will be a very long taxing road until then. It will take far more work, and since he is a runner, we have to be on our guard 24/7!

We never struggle the same way…..so i didn’t struggle the same as others, but it was definitely a dark time, but God rescued me just like He will rescue you!

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Getting Ugly

That is what I did today….i got Ugly! What does that mean? Well getting ugly is that all out crying moment when you can’t control tears, sobs…..anything. It’s that moment you fall to your knees and cry out to Jesus for your sanity’s sake. It’s that moment you have nothing left to give this world, and you need strength, mercy and grace lest you end up on the 5 o’clock news! (You hopefully understand that I said that to make a point!) It’s the breaking point where you have no where else to turn.

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I have been catching up all week on a Bible Study God laid on my heart to join….4 weeks late! AMAZING thing is, i have almost accomplished that goal! So why all the ugly? Why today? Why now?

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